随想篇

我，几时开始变得那么虚伪的？
为什么越来越不敢说真话？
敢怒敢言的我，渐渐的变成了为了迎合众人而变得表里不一的人。
我痛恨这样的自己。
曾经问过自己，这样的我还算是人吗？
我还有资格，得到神无瑕的爱吗？
我配进天堂吗？
我不配吧。

* *　　　　　　* * *　　　　　　*

最近我到底是怎么了？
总是在胡思乱想些有的没的。
那个开心的湘怡哪儿去了？
那个痛恨虚伪面具的湘怡咧？
还有那个无忧无虑的湘怡，
到底被谁，藏到什么地方去了？
怎么才一转眼，就不见了呢？

我不要看到哪个在大家面前笑嘻嘻，
孤单一个人时却寂寞无助的湘怡。
你把那个外表开心，内心忧郁的湘怡带走好不好？
把那个天真无邪，无忧无虑的湘怡还给我，
好不好？

今天我们的物理的chang老师跟我们说，他有可能只教我们到这个月底。
但也有可能到下个月底，或者也有可能到今年尾。
因为教育局很像是要把所有中六的学生挤在同一件学校，所以全部JB的Lower Six都要转校。
转去那里？
还不知道。
几时要转？
也还不知道。
教育局的办事效率还是一样的烂。

不过今天老师跟我们说的时候，他的眼睛红红的。
是因为强忍着泪水吗？
我不知道，但是他看起来很舍不得。
然后他就一直跟我们说要多做练习，才会进步。
还有要怎样怎样才可以考到好成绩，之类的东西。

突然间班上的气氛就凝重起来了。
啊～
最讨厌就是这种气氛。
还害我整节的心情一直都很很emo。

我想，我应该也会舍不得老师吧。
毕竟教了我们一整年。
还要常常担心我们的成绩。
不及格的人他还偷偷加分让他们及格。
真感动。

我想，我会记得这个老师吧。
希望他会一直过得很好。
加油咯，Mr Chang!
虽然我们常常让你很失望。
谢谢你一直以来的教诲。

我妈是一个思想极端前卫的新时代女性。
前卫到有点.....恐怖。

你知道她目前最爱问我什么吗？

“阿格啊~几时要找男朋友阿？”

“......”

这还不是最恐怖的。
恐怖的是，她不论什么事情都可以和“找男朋友”扯在一起....

事件一：
时间：某一个下午
地点：我家客厅
人物：我和老妈
发生经过：
我在和朋友传短讯聊天打屁。
妈：你在做么？
我：sms我朋友咯。
妈：男的女的？
我：女的。
妈：不是男的咩？快点去早一个男的啦~
我：.......

结论：不要让你妈看到你在sms！

事件二：
时间：某一个下午
地点：我家客厅
人物：我和老妈
发生经过：
老妈在看不懂什么港剧，我刚好没事做就陪她一起看了一下下。
一个男生载他生病的女朋友去看病，看完病又载她回家。
然后很贴心的照顾女生。
妈：你看，有男朋友几好，有人包载送，生病有人照顾。
我：噢。
妈：你不羡慕的咩？
我：一点点咯。
妈：酱你还不快点去找男朋友？酱我可以省很多车油钱咧！

结论：不要整天看电视！

事件三：
时间：某一个下午
地点：我家客厅
人物：我和老妈
发生经过：
我在上网检查电子邮件。
老妈路过，问：哇，在做么？跟男朋友聊天啊？
我：没有啦在看email。
妈：酱得空整天在家上网，去找男朋友啦！不要整天呆在家！
我：......

结论：不要有事没事就上网！

———————————————————————————————

抓狂。
我真的快抓狂了。
谁愿意救我一把？？
>.<

老妈啊，不是我不要找男朋友，但是你觉得会有人要我咩，真是的......

所以说...有个思想太前卫的老妈，真的不是一件好事......

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~

That's what you'd hear in the theatre when watching KUNGFU PANDA.
Yupp, I've watched it today, finally!!!!
It was awesome. (like they said, attracted by his awesomeness and attractiveness)
Definitely a must-watch movie for this year!
Not gonna comment much about this show, go and watch it yourself and get ready to laugh until stomachache.
Nice x 10000000000000.

Me and Wern Cui went to CS this afternoon after school just to catch that show.
Had lunch at "Tang Tea" and we two were talking talking talking all the way from classroom to bus stop until we finally settled down in the theatre.
Girls chat (or rather, gossip!) a lot, I must say.
It is soooooooo fun to talk to somebody like her. Honestly. lols~

Btw, this year got sooooooooooooooooo many nice nice movie that is releasing soon!!
The Mummy, Hancock, Wall.e, Batman, etc etc etc.
OMG OMG OMG~~~
All are very nice show but damn lah, this year got major exam, can go and watch all of them.
Plus, I'm soooooo broke now.
Probably because I played way too much.
Sigh.

Oh and yea, I failed 2 out of 4 subjects for my mid-term.
Actually I failed 3 but my Physics teacher happened to be so kind and add a few marks to my paper and passed me!!
If you ask me if I'm disappointed with my results, I'd say yes.
But then its expected la, cause I din put in alot of effort like some others do.
But the whole class has more or less results like this lo, all failed at least 2 subjects except the two very smart fellas.
Not gonna mention their names here, but its very obvious who they are if you're in Upper 6 SSI this year.

Really gotta work hard liao!!! (I've been telling myself this for God-knows-how-many-times)
Everybody facing major exam this year, JIA YOU JIA YOU~~

Currently in love with this song, named "Who am I".
Beautiful song.
Read the lyrics~~



Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am.
But because what of you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
You told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
Cause I am yours.
I am yours.


AND AND AND AND this, my all time favourite.
"MIGHTY TO SAVE"

Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
A kindness of a Savior
The hope of nations

Savior
He can move the mountains
My God is Mighty to save
He is Mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender

Shine your light and let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus

今天是凯倩的十九岁生日哦~
最后一个“一”字头的生日了。
基本上很多人的都已经过了 。
一定很惆怅吧？
哈哈~
我还一直笑他们老了，本小姐还有两个一字头的生日没过neh~
真是年轻~

第一个活动是打-保-龄-球！
出席的人有老大，诗杰，ben，文祥，尼库拉斯，义翔，家昌，佳仪，咸辉，健子，我和寿星婆，还有一个叫家乐的男生。
以前是和凯倩同校的。
咱们一致通过，都认为他还几帅一下。
呵呵。
希望他不会看到这一篇东西。

我们到达的时候已经迟了半个小时。
不用问也知道为什么。
我们的司机大哥咯。
习惯就好啦。

不过，今天有大优待哦！
本来五块半时只能打一场的，可是不知道为什么那个人竟然给我们打两场！
赚到了 ！ ^^
还有哦，本小姐今天strike了四次！
真是破纪录。
快点掌声鼓励鼓励一下吧~

然后我们就转移阵地，到Redbox去K歌~
不过比起来，我今天的心情比较想K人。
哈哈。
到了那里的时候又迟了。
因为我要先去拿蛋糕。
是我的一个教会的朋友做的哦。
超好吃的，绝对不输给外面的蛋糕店。
她目前是在蛋糕店学着，等她学成以后一定会是个出名的糕点师傅。
至少我是这么相信着的。
呵呵。
顺便帮她打个广告。要下订单的可以跟我说一声，我帮你跟她定。

不是我要说。
Kensen的嗓门还真不是普通的大。
没用麦都比我用麦大声。
两个字。恐怖。

老大，ben和尼库拉斯唱到一半就跑掉了。
好像是要和一个很久不见的同学约会之类的吧。
丢下我们，跑去另一间房唱。
哈哈。
老大还是唱回那首黄金甲，已经快变成他的招牌歌曲了。
哈哈。

噢，离题一下。
大家以后尽量避免搭草原快车噢。
昨天老大他们买了两点的票，四点才有车出现。真是疯狂。
回到来的时候，已经是晚上十点了。
无法想象，从KL下JB要花上八个小时。
难怪大家昨天会没有心情啦。
不过其实应该还蛮好玩的吧。
这种经验是每个人都有的哦。
呵呵。
有点幸灾乐祸的感觉。。。

刚才回到家我才想起很重要的一件事。
我今天，忘-了-和-凯-倩-拍-照！！
疯掉~~~
改天补拍好不好？

Watched the making of KungFu Panda just now.
And, yea, you bet.
I WANNA WATCH IT!!

The movie's release is on 5th of June, and it's a Thursday. Thanks to my tuition I wont be free to catch it on Thursday.

So i might be going on the 6th or 7th.

Anybody wanna join me? =)

have stronger faith in God.
learn swimming.
learn how to play drum + guitar.
know the right one God appointed for me.
score >3.75 for this sem. and for all the following sems
have vacation at Langkawi / Pulau Redang!!
buy herself an iPod!!
bring mom's little kancil to Melaka!
slim down.
grow taller.
get black belt for karate-do - though missed so many lessons.....